Won't it just knock their socks off when they find out... I'm a Carrington.

They say the first step is self-awareness, and I admit: I have been totally addicted to everything that has to do with Heath Ledger, since I learned of his tragic death tuesday the 22nd of January around 11 pm, when Hovesan texted me the tragic news. I just can't stop reading about him, examine photos of him, and watching Interviews with him. Soon I'm having a Heath Ledger movie memorial night as well with a friend of mine. Hopefully I can let it go, when they determine what caused his death.
Today I just came across these sweet photos of Heath and his x-fiancé and mother of their child, Michelle Williams, and were they just the cutest couple or WHAT??
I guess this all reminds me of a sad Hollywood-movie with no happy ending, and my heart is bleeding... Normally I find those happy-ending movies too transparent and unimportant, but in real life I wish we could all live happily ever after...

The death of Heath Ledger one week ago, has really had a deep impact on me. It is very difficult for me to handle death in general, but when it comes to young people dying all of a sudden, I find life very unfair, and it is almost impossible to try to justify something like that. It doesn't help, when it's someone as cute and talented as Heath! The funny thing is, I know much more about Heath now, than before he died, after having read several of touching tributes to the deceased actor (I guess it is true, that in order to achieve full recognition as an artist, you have to die). I also watched quite a few interviews with him, and he seemed like such a fine, creative and thoughtful person (I admit, it's getting out of hand, because I also dreamt of him several of times lately, and after reading a touching obituary, I also cried a few tears).
I just cannot comprehend, that there will never ever be another Heath, or anyone else that dies for that matter. We are all unique, which is why every life is so precious, and which is why it's so not fair, when someone is "missing out on" half a life, not to mention the surviving relatives, who have to live with the grief for the rest of their lives...

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This is so sad... The talented and handsome actor Heath Ledger has passed away only 28 years old. It is believed he died of a drug overdose or suicide. Apparently he suffered from depression and was a substance abuser. This really makes me wonder, why there is so many drug-related deaths in Holywood? Less than a week ago the actor Brad Renfro (known among others from Sleepers and The jacket) died from an overdoze, Ike Turned overdozed a month ago, my favourite comedian Owen Wilson attempted suicide in August (he is also a drug-addict and suffers from depression), and almost a year ago Anna Nicole Smith died from an overdoze of Sleeping Medication. Rapper Pimp C is just one of a couple of american rappers, that suffered drug-related deaths within the last year, Kurt Cobain comitted suicide in the 90'es (on my Birthday actually), and Michael Hutchence and his girlfrind Paula Yates both died within a year in consequence of drug-addictions and depressions.

Lately the press has written Britneys obituary just in case, and stars like Lindsay Lohan, Kate Moss, Pete Doherty, Robert Downey Jr., Kelly and Jack Osbourne and Amy Winehouse are all well known for their drug adddictions and countless of stays at rehad facilities.

What goes wrong, is celebrity life really that unbearable? Are many artists just sensitive people and therefore a high-risk group? Do they soothe their depressions with alcohol and drugs, or in contrary, do they get suicidal from the drug-abuse? Is the massive pressure from a life in public, with complete surveillance from paparazzies and the public, too much for most people to handle? Are the drugs (too) common and easy to access in the celeb environment? Is it the lonely life of a star, where everybody wants a piece of you, no one can be trusted and your "friends" will rat out on you and reveal obscene details from your private life to make some fast money? Is it a lifestyle with too much money, where everything is achievable and available, but nothing is ever enough anymore? Well, I don't know... but I fear for the next death of a Hollywood star, and it will happen!

A few days ago Danish statistics announced the most popular names of 2007, and my niece, Matilde, can be very content, because her name was the most popular name for girls last year. For the boys' part, Mikkel went from second in 2006 to the top spot in 2007. Congrats to you!

Unfortunately there is no top chart without a list of the opposite as well. Little was I surprised to find my name, Bettina, as one of the most unpopular names last year. I never really liked Bettina, but it doesn't help, that every Stand-up'er, radio shows or movies, that has a slut, promiscuous or cheap tart of a girl in their show, is ALWAYS named Bettina. I often considered to add another name to Bettina like Bettina-Sofia or Bettina-Olivia or anything really, hoping to remove focus from Bettina to the other name, but then me and my friends wouldn't be able to make so much fun of my name, and I wouldn't miss out on that...



6579 (plus 5281 spelled with just one "t") other danish girls share my name-destiny. I wonder how busy they keep the "numerologs" (what's the english word?). In 2006 one more girl was called Bettina than in 2007, so a Bettina either died or changed her name... If you spell your name with just one "t" it looks really bad, since there is 16 girls less in 2007 compared to 2006. At least two girls were named Bettina in 2006 compared to zero spelled with just one "t". Fortunately I can be happy about having a better name than just plain Betina with one "t", HA!